Surrender

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve been surprised by any improvement given my irregular yoga schedule. Or more accurately, I’m going regularly, but generally just 1x a week right now, occasionally 2. We’ll see how that evolves.  After voices in my head telling me it was a long day and just go home, I actually stayed the course and attended a 7pm evening class this week (in all honesty, the voices usually win). Not only was it hot, but super duper swampy. I think this is a combination of my studio and it being the last class of the day, after the heat was on for many many hours, etc.

I knew it was going to be hard and frankly, I was a bit tired. My concentration was off (started with breathing when I thought we were done and we were still going and continued on the floor when for some reason I thought cobra was locust… you get the idea…)

The humidity was, as most of you know, extremely challenging… for me, much more than the heat. So I told myself. Surrender. You’re here. Do what you can. Pick your moments to push and pick your moments to retreat (if needed). So I did. I pushed, I paused (not stopping, just determining which postures to take it a bit easy on (I know, not very Bikram sounding). The other distraction was a VERY distracted guy two positions over from me, fidgeting beyond belief. Again, I told myself, surrender. Don’t get caught up in his antics. I didn’t do great on standing head to knee, and my first half of bow was iffy, however, I continued and my last set was pretty damn good.

I lost a lot of energy by the end of the spine strengthening when I was praying for air, so floor blow and even camel were not great. Normally I’d beat myself up. This time, I found my attitude much healthier. I stayed present, I did the postures and I did what I could, when I could do it.

Namaste!

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